Is lifted…..I have agonized and stressed out about this decision for a few weeks now. Always powering through it to get it done, but finally I decided to just do what made me happy and cut out the stress and crap. Of course, it was myself who was causing all the stress. What’s the big decision you ask…….I’ve decided not to run the half marathon. The training was killing me – mentally and physically. Physically, my back continue to hurt and worsened with every run. Mentally, I just wasn’t enjoying all that running. It became a chore I “had” to do. I thought it was a great idea to join a running club and to have a set schedule. But what I found out was this actually hinder me from being able to do other things, which added to the stress.
It was a hard decision because I felt like I was letting myself and other people down. I had made a big deal about it to others and felt like I was just being a “quitter”. I think I even wrote that in my first entry about the race. What I have now come to realize, is that I am not a quitter. I achieve a lot of goals I set for myself, but it appears that those are usually ones that I am passionate about and enjoy. This is just not one of them, so why make myself upset just to do something. Life is too short. It’s not hurting anyone else or even me for that matter if I don’t do the race. If you recall from my first post on it, I did actually try to train for a 1/2 marathon before. I guess I needed to learn this lesson again 😉
I still enjoy running though, but on my terms. Instead of stressing about the impending race, I am going to enjoy this Holiday Season. Visit friends, attend parties, bake more. Running 5 days a week (at increasing mileage with a sore back) is NOT on the agenda.
xoxo,
Dominica